It’s been almost a year since you last heard from me. Pretty much since I went back to work full-time. So, how am I doing? How am I handling everything?
One day at a time honestly.
I am constantly torn between throwing the towel or pushing myself to keep going. I feel like there is not an easy option either way it goes.
When I was home, I was sure I wanted to be a career mom and work. I was tired of being home all day. I didn’t feel empowered or inspired by anything. I simply wanted a good paying job in my field and work full-time.
Now that I am doing exactly what I asked for, I still contemplate if I made the right choice–daily. But I am not alone. I have met wonderful women at work who happen to be young mothers and also struggle with the same battle. It is never ending. So, I have learned to take it one day at a time. What may work today may not work in six months or a year from now–and that is completely okay.
I have learned to let go of perfection.
I have learned to accept that my perfect Instagram home will not be perfect all the time. The laundry room will be filled with baskets full of clothes waiting to be folded. The counters might be stickier and some days, pizza for dinner will be just fine. I do what is necessary–everything else can wait. I have accepted that I won’t be able to take my kids to story time during the day anymore and that is perfectly okay. My kids miss me but they feel a sense of pride knowing that their mom works for a very cool company.
It may be temporary or it may be for ten years, but one thing that has surprised me about being a corporate, career mom is that I never would have predicted that I would “like” a company or colleagues so much. I never saw myself in Corporate America–ever. But now I am starting to like it more and more and wonder if I am truly cut out for it.
My life is a bit hectic. Okay I lied. My life is extremely hectic, but I do the best I can.
Today, I pulled out my laptop and decided to start writing a new novel. I had this idea flooding my mind, so I finally decided to write. And then I realized, “why not just blog as well.”
So here I am.
I hope to make this a regular habit again. Until then, take care and know that perfection is overrated.